okay; it looks like my blog is still alive

today's flavor: OKAY
anxiety : 0
agitation : 0

About a week ago, I received an e-mail saying that all blogs with adult content will be deleted by the 30th of June, my blog included.

Seriously. "Adult content".

I'm aware of course that the message was spam-bot sent, and that my blog was similarly picked out by spam-bot, because I had ticked "mature content" in the settings page.  By mature content I simply meant that a lot of the stuff I discuss aren't exactly suitable for kiddos, i.e., suicidal thoughts, outrageous urges to harm others, prescription drugs, etc.   But this isn't at all an "adult site" in the common sense of the term, since I DO NOT FREAKING DISTRIBUTE PORN.

the worst downward swing in the past 12 months

today's flavor: MODERATE DEPRESSION
anxiety : 1
agitation : 1
unwanted guests: moderate dysania (stays until after noon), brittleness of resolve

Having been in a bitter, crushing, debilitating, judgment-impairing moderate depression in the past week or two, I'm climbing out of it now and am able to handle a bit more work without breaking down.  It was my worst downward swing in the past twelve months, and I'm glad it's showing signs of lifting.

ache

today's flavor: SLIGHT DEPRESSION
anxiety : 1
agitation : 1

I haven't felt this depressed in a long while, so I suppose it's about time.  Not that I have any choice in it -  I swear it came suddenly and unbidden, no triggers, no events, no direct causes, nothing at all to explain what brought it about.    I was just off to work, and there it was.  And the 35*C /95*F heat is certainly adding to the sluggishness.

why I think it's a good idea to check my fb newsfeed only when i feel happy

today's flavor: H U N K Y  - D O R Y
anxiety : 0
agitation : 0

I know it has rather become, er, stylish for parent-aged people to rant about the potential evils of social media, but that's not what I'm about to do here.  I do appreciate Facebook for the convenience it affords me - for one thing, it makes it easy for me to keep in touch with people I normally wouldn't keep in touch with.