i don't want to be the one to rain on your special day, but... uh ... yeah, i do

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Petty rant mode .

I know some time ago I said something along the lines of "weddings are happy things and weddings are good things and I like going to weddings and blah blah blah and whee" .

But I don't feel that way today. I'd even like to tell the girl who'd said that to bugger off. I'm leaning toward pissed right now that I have to go to one later that I actually bothered to vent before getting ready to go.

Darn. I don't want to be so assholic about being invited, but I feel like that it's such an unfitting formality that we were, and inconveniently ethical that we show up at the special day of this particular couple. Besides, there isn't really a sufficient reason why we couldn't drop by.

I know. I'm being petty. The bride and the groom didn't do anything wrong. I'm just being a total jerk because I feel awful today.

So okay, we'll drop by . Just to be nice. But we were too busy and broke to pick out a gift this week, so there, I'm sorry.

I sometimes hate how brides want their weddings to be overly formal and insist their guests to wear evening gowns in the morning or afternoon. It's a really unnecessary hassle in a tropical country. At least today's bride is a little bit more flexible about her guest's attire.

The bride at the last wedding I went to wasn't so; I thought she was really primadonna about it, and I was bitchy enough to let her know while she was just about to march. Fine, it was supposed to be her day, and she's my friend, so I gave in to her wishes though it was an utter inconvenience (as in, something enough to make me cry in frustration) and a big waste of time and money for a dress I don't even want to see again. I'm letting her enjoy her honeymoon haze for a while because I'd like to pretend I have manners and breeding and respect for the new couple; but the next time I go out for coffee with her, I'm unleashing.

It really hurts my budget to have to buy another dress. I'd hate to wear an old one again, because people have seen it several times (same church, same circle of friends in the x number of weddings in the past few years). Truthfully, my savings are still in the ICU from certain expenses, including that last stupid dress I had to buy. And I hate having to go to events like these looking like a worn out dishrag next to my girl-friends who actually found something nice to put on.

I am so not looking forward to going in an outfit I don't like, that I can 't even think about what to do with my hair or make up. I haven't even bothered to rub off the old, jagged nail polish on my fingers. The thing is in an hour and I haven't even showered yet. Groan...