It's been around a year and a half since I quit my previous occupation, and I'm still not quite sure what I should be doing job-wise.
Just to clarify, I'm not a bum since i actually am doing something productive. I've turned my hobby into a little business of sorts; and of course, on my free time, there's ministry.
But I still feel like I'm not being productive enough.
My skills are highly underused.
My intelligence is not being applied.
I'm not earning much (I might have made the impression to my friends that I'm doing hunky-dory in in my little business thing, but the truth is, I'm not quite)
I have this great sense of stagnation going on.
I basically feel like a great waste in cellulose. Not to mention destiny.
So I get to thinking about finding a job, but I have a lot of things to consider. I don't want to get a job just for the sake of being employed (that's a reason for many people, but I just think it's utterly stupid). I don't want to get into another one that isn't for me. I intend to be in one that I actually like. Now, I'm gonna seem overly prissy, but for a perfectly good reason: Due to the loverly chemical imbalance and my predisposition to anxiety and agitation, it's a bit of wisdom so as to not work myself into another severe episode. If I work job I don't like, I'd end up having to lose it anyway (and if it gets that bad, I might end up in the hospital), so I might as well find something that fits.
- It's gotta be something that I at least have an inclination for or interest in.
- It has to be something moral and legal. I'm inflexile on that one.
- I don't care much about a large income; Hubby is working and earning anyway. My concern is that I earn in proportion to the amount of work I put out, i.e., I don't want a job that makes me feel cheated or overworked but underpaid.
- There won't ever be a stress-free evironment, but I have to be in one in which I can easily cope. It would be best for me to work where stressors are minimal, or at least controllable.
- I'd prefer something with flexible hours, or at least with part-time hours.
- I need one that isn't too strict with schedules and attendance because there will be days that I just can't make it (and when I say can't, I don't just mean "too lazy", "don't want to"; I actually mean unable, impossible) . I am not a lazy person and am very good at meeting requirements, goals and deadlines; I just need a lot of flexibility.
- I can't get a job that requires me to come in early in the morning. 10am is too early. Trust me; every time I get up too early, I end up with murderous and suicidal thoughts - and i don't mean that in a poetic sense.
- I shouldn't work late hours because it throws my imbalance further off. A few late nights are fine, but it shouldnt be regular.
- I will need an assistant, or at least a back-up.
- I need a sense of reward and / or promotion. I'd prefer to stay away from dead-end bottom-feeder jobs.
- For that matter, I don't want to be the guy at the bottom of the food chain. I can't afford to be the tambakan.
- I want something that doesn't clip my freedom to choose, my sense of creativity and individuality. No dress codes, no tight rules.
- I can't work in a place where there are no people. I want people.
- But I don't mean a-lot-of-people-all-the-time-everywhere. And not people to entertain in a PR sense.
- I don't need an impressive occupation, but I'd like something I can be unashamed to talk about.
- I'd prefer (and it would be wise) to stay away from another self-serving, contemptuous, a*****ic manager who is incapable of communicating, managing or even listening.
- I don't like auditions or interviews, but I don't mind going through one if necessary.
- I need access to a whole lot of drinking water, healthful food, comfortable restrooms and something I can lie in when I feel overwhelmed or fatigued.
- I need a place that is open and considerate to bipolars. Most workplaces discriminate against, and that's understandable.
So see, I'm hopeless, hahaha :D
Well, not really. The best option i see for myself is really to work at home or have my own business. It's something I'm considering, but I'm not entirely sold on it yet. I need to give myself some more time to think and pray about it.
