Bam-bam-bam-bam, Buh-bam-bam-bam-bam; I Wanna Be Sedated

severe elevation | high elevation | moderate elevation | slight elevation | normal | slight depression | moderate depression | deep depression | severe depression || anx : 1 , agit : 1

The previously mentioned depressive symptoms didn't last long; as soon as my flu went away, I was back on the elevated path.

Flippit, I've really got to find more synonyms to nip at unnecessary redundundundundundancy.

Anyway, the weekend was a happy, healthy salad of productive meetings, ministry, worship, cake and birthday gifts. And the essence of manslaughter. Don't ask.

I haven't been sleeping well for over a week now; I suppose that is the cause of my monster headaches. I'd stay up for most of after-midnight reading or pondering with quasi-theoretician jargon the difference between "probable" and "possible", or "rational" and "logical" or "flammable" and "inflammable". Or "bunny" and "rabbit".

Shoot. Me.

And, OMG, I just realized I'd skipped the Lithium the past two days.
[sfx: screamo music]

My formerly-trusty sedatives have ceased to be reliable. Perhaps they've sat too long in my medicine cabinet since I took them last? Or maybe I've developed an immunity, or am just especially elevated these days? I tried the shiny, blue, gel-filled, over-the-counter capsule - the one that used to be capable of knocking me out within thirty minutes and holding me in a stupor until late afternoon the following day. But no luck. I resorted to the ever-handy-dandy antihistamine. Still no luck.

Tonight, I shall try take two antihistamine tabs. If I remember to, that is.

If that still doesn't work, I may have to ask the doctor for another high-security prescription for those special, sure-knockout drugs legally classified as "dangerous". No-joke dangerous. Let me explain, I mean, in the way I see it:

Level 0: Normal ---------------------- Melatonin tablets, 3.0 mg (natural supplement; OTC)
Level 1: Slight restlessness --------- Melatonin, 6mg or "Sleep Doctor" (natural supplement; OTC)
Level 2: Difficulty in sleeping ------- Antihistamine, 50 mg (OTC drug)
Level 3: Hyperactivity at night ------ Antihistamine, 100 mg
Level 4: Consecutive hyper nights -- OTC Sleeping pills
Level 5: No need for sleep ----------- "Dangerous Drugs"

* OTC: over-the-counter


The first and so-far-last time I was given a prescription for Level 5, the E.R. doctor had to interview me until he was really sure I needed those drugs (i.e., I was already crying in frustration). He had to secure a prescription pad from another department in the hospital. The said pad had a stern warning at its header with the phrase dangerous drugs in it somewhere, and had to be filled in triplicate. Before he handed my copy to me, he explained the gravity of the prescription and the legal implications. He instructed me to strictly adhere with the stated dosage and administration, and made me swear to destroy the prescription paper after the drugs have been bought. Pretty cool, huh?

I'd really love to ramble on some more, but I need to lay this headache down.