hunky-dory

today's weather: B A S E L I N E ( h u n k y - d o r y ! ) :)
anxiety : 0 | agitation : 0


Despite the slight depressions / elevations / dysphoriae I've been experiencing, things have been hunky-dory for the past several weeks . Actually, things are going great. When people ask us how we're doing, I say we're good, or great, and sometimes even almost perfect. No kidding! And I love it.

Lately, I've been closest to baseline and haven't had much of agitatedness or anxiety - zero on most days - and this is without the meds. Imagine that.

Peace and joy aren't just words on greeting cards these days; they are actual experiences.

I've found new meanings, reasons and suchlike for life, and death is no longer such a frequent preoccupation (*Just so it's clear: what I was talking about in the previous entry is not really about "wanting to die", but more of "wishing I could forget the pathetic parts of my existence"). I actually want to start living now because I can see better options. Not so trapped anymore.

I credit much of this phenomenon to the absence of triggers and unnecessary restrictions since leaving Raven Corp. I will keep coming back to that fact because it's been so major.

There's so much freedom and grace in this new arrangement. Galatians 5 makes a whole new rhema, it's amazing. And I just keep on celebrating how much God really loves me - and it's not just an unseen assurance this time.

I just met with my new mentor of sorts, Tita E, and she kept remarking that I looked how I felt: wonderful. I couldn't stop gushing to her about how happy I was, and she affirmed the rightness of the choices we made. I love her.

I feel so nice lately that I've been willing to do house chores. And since I'm thinking clearer now that I'm off the Lithium, I enjoy reading again. And I can write poetry again! Whee!

I feel like singing Walking on Sunshine. Woah-oh-oh.