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I've reverted to a dark background and banner, as a sort of attempt to make it consistent with the weather within.
I've decided to make this blog-site where I would unreservedly write out what's going on in my head, particularly pertaining to mood swings as induced by my chemical imbalance. I intend to be more honest and expressive here; less inhibited, less sugar-coated.
I've been swinging around the levels of depression lately -for the past six weeks I think. No external reason; it's really just chemical, I swear. Not much I can do about it either, except take my meds, do the coping mechanisms and stay away from the triggers. And wait it out, of course. My depressive episodes could last up to a few months, though with proper meds and caring relationships, I'd be alright, and probably swing out of it sooner.
But hey, I still have my sense of humor, and I can still think happy thawts.
The past three days have been the worst of the six-week period so far. Now that was somewhat due to external events.
On the brighter side of things: This current depression is at a managable, low-to-moderate level. It hasn't yet reached high-to-extreme, like what happened last year, in which I was hardly eating or getting out of bed and was on suicide watch.
Either way, this isn't exactly a nice place to be, so I'll be making sure I get some sunshine, some exercise (ulp) and surround myself with positive people until I get an upward swing.
I.M.H.O., The only way is up.
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