another URL change and another

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I just changed my URL again this week. Twice.

The first time was because there was this kid who was creeping me out.

This kid was acting like we were friends or something just because I'm bipolar and he might be bipolar. I've actually known him personally for a couple of years now, and I've always known him to be annoying, but it was only recently that he started to annoy me personally. I told him about my aberration one day because he was overreacting about his possibly being bipolar; I did it in good will just so he wouldn't feel like there was something wrong with him. I even gave him some good questions to ask his doctor, and shared some useful links with him - I swear, I was just trying to be nice. Now, how was I supposed to know this kid instantly developed a weird form of attachment to anyone who showed him the slightest bit of concern? Good grief. He thinks that since we have some semblance of affinity he's entitled to ask me personal questions out of the blue and snoop around and get all intrusive - in such a creepy stalker way, like he had no manners or boundaries or the need to breathe his own air. The last straw was when he initiated a FB chat for the nth time in a row, and hinted about something he could have only found out from this blog. So I changed my URL, my blog title and user name in the hopes of shaking him away from here (Of course he can always try to find me via Google search, but then he should read this entry and get the point).

I may just be paranoid, and I may even be overreacting, but I just had to do it.

Anyway, the second time I changed the URL was partially an obsessive-compulsive action to reinforce the previous change, but largely a saner reason: I thought of a cuter, cleverer name for my blog. ^_^ ho ho ho.

I've finally settled with soul marmalade (woot! woot!) - it's not as pretentious as saccharine/venom, and it's not as cliche as sunshine and shadow. I've always loved the word soul and I've often used it in my poetry when I'd be too lazy tho think of another word to refer to my being, my core or just plain me. I've also always loved the word marmalade because it's yummy and it reminds me of Sesame Street and it's got my name in there somewhere. I find delicious the idea of my notions, emotions and so on coming together and simmering into a palatable serving of sorts.

To further give in to my compulsive obsession (or obsessive compulsion), I had to give my site a new look. Yes, I had to. I've been acutely aware of (i.e., losing sleep over) desecration suffered upon this blog, as caused by a few misfortunes associated with the blog's previous reincarnations. Changing as much as I can in gives me a sense of washing off the grime, like a rebirth of sorts.

New background and header design courtesy of Shabby Blogs. Header customized by myself.

I hope I wouldn't have to change the URL again. And I hope I won't have any more disasters.

So far so good.