obsessing and this chain of thought

severe elevation | high elevation | moderate elevation | slight elevation | stable | slight depression | moderate depression |deep depression | severe depression || anx: 1, agit: 1


I'm not quite in the normal zone today. But I faithfully took my Lithium. Honest. In fact, I took it every night for the past ... two days. My mind has been so hyper and my ideas are getting ideas. They aren't always the right kind, though. I have this obsessive need again to grab a felt-tipped pen or charcoal pencil and fill every blank space on the walls. I've often felt that so many times before; I've never actually done it though. Well, I've tried writing or drawing something on the wall but always stopped after around a square meter, upon realizing how messy it'd make a room look. After that I'd be obsessing about an entirely different thing - how to clean up the mess. I have notebooks and journals, yes; but notebooks and journals don't quite fit that need since I will be required to keep things need and orderly in a notebook or journal. Maybe if we go scouting for a new house, we should find one which has an extra room for obsessive-writing needs. Paint the walls white and re-paint them every night as needed. Like Forgetful Lucy's garage wall in 50 First Dates. I love the soundtrack of that movie - Re-made 80's new wave and brit rock. I wonder why she was still living with her parents. I said my mind was hyper today. Hubby asked me to help him come up with additional application ideas to supplement his preaching at youth church later; I came up with two whole preachings and volunteered to preach instead so he can focus on Sunday things. I'll be preaching without notes later. I've always wanted to do that.