do you suffer from long-term memory loss? (i can't remember)

severe elev. | high elev. | moderate elev. | slight elev. | BASELINE | slight dep. | moderate dep. | deep dep. | severe dep. || anx: 0 | agit: 0

Okay. So far so good in usually-dysphoric December, but not entirely.

Since the Lithium, aside from the decreased passion and creativity, there has been a whole lot of mental dullness. I am not as quick-witted and mentally sharp as I used to be, and I'm sure it's not just because of aging. The change has been too drastic.

I've also been experiencing not just a difficulty but an an utter inability to focus, which may also be contributing to my difficulty in retaining recent information.

I've also been having a hard time the meanings of multiple-syllable words I am positively certain I used to know.

Bugger all this. I feel like my brain cells have committed hara-kiri in the shame of being treated with Lithium. Bugger, bugger, buggerbuggerbugger.